I've been thinking about making good choices. There are those that are only good for the time being, those that are good only after a while, and finally the ones that are just good from start to end. It is hard to make choices with out being reassured that the outcome is guaranteed to be exactly what you expect it to be. I've made all kinds of choices in my life, hoping that all of them will end in at least some kind of warped version of what i was envisioning. The decisions of daily importance range from how hard you are going to hit that snooze button on Monday morning to what to do first when you see someone collapse at a grocery store (I've been there). Sometimes i wonder how some choices that seem so so wrong can feel so very right... I want to be proud of the choices i make, little or huge. I don't want the burden of regret or the pattern of constant longing of going back and changing the sequence of events so that you could have done something better. I think my rather rough life experience has given me a good "hand to play" when faced with certain situation but sometimes, i get totally blindsided by how unprepared and how novice i feel when trying to choose a correct path. My mother always taught me to face my fears and take on challenges... and i am trying really hard. It's just sometimes.. i wish i could be extended a helping hand in giving me a realistic look at what is right for the long hall... not just for the moment.
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