Making Choices

I've been thinking about making good choices. There are those that are only good for the time being, those that are good only after a while, and finally the ones that are just good from start to end. It is hard to make choices with out being reassured that the outcome is guaranteed to be exactly what you expect it to be. I've made all kinds of choices in my life, hoping that all of them will end in at least some kind of warped version of what i was envisioning. The decisions of daily importance range from how hard you are going to hit that snooze button on Monday morning to what to do first when you see someone collapse at a grocery store (I've been there). Sometimes i wonder how some choices that seem so so wrong can feel so very right... I want to be proud of the choices i make, little or huge. I don't want the burden of regret or the pattern of constant longing of going back and changing the sequence of events so that you could have done something better. I think my rather rough life experience has given me a good "hand to play" when faced with certain situation but sometimes, i get totally blindsided by how unprepared and how novice i feel when trying to choose a correct path. My mother always taught me to face my fears and take on challenges... and i am trying really hard. It's just sometimes.. i wish i could be extended a helping hand in giving me a realistic look at what is right for the long hall... not just for the moment.

Last Day of Freedom

Well, it is Sunday night. School starts tomorrow... can i just express at how disgusted i am to spend $668 and some odd cents on books that I will have to mostly pretend that i am reading?? I think that the university system should be ashamed at how much money they are taking from kids that already don't have much to begin with.... yea like me (totally poor!!!). I start planning meals around my paycheck. I am hoping to totally become focused on doing good this semester because after 17 credits of classes that make me want to pull my hair out, i will be set free for my last year. Plus i need to find a hospital job so i can actually get my feet wet in what it is i am going to be around for the rest of my life (sounds a bit daunting). I've also (of course) been feeling sick... which makes me absolutely despise winter and Wisconsin (Hawaii here i come). Well, i am going to go and TRY to fall asleep (i have a ton to think about as usual) ... plus as a nerd that i am, i am still just a little excited to get back to the whole studying thing. Till next time...

Friday Night Adventures

1)Finally done with my winter World History class (finally!!!).
2)Feeling a little under the weather (Nothing a good ol' OTC drug can't fix).
3)Going to rock out the last Friday of freedom by going out to Firefly (with someone quite handsome).
4)Listening to Hot N' Cold (which you totally are..)

Chao :)

Break The Ice

Although I plan on NOT having a life as soon as my next semester of school starts, I feel the urge to share my experiences as I go through my always unpredictable days. Recently, my life seems to have been turned upside down (nothing new) and I've decided to start fresh. I hope this blog helps me talk (or more so write) through my problems and when appropriate acknowledge my successes. Ultimately, somewhere down the line, I may be even be able to get to know this incredibly confused but always resilient 21 - year old that has been tightly packed into my 5'4'' (almost...) stature.